Thursday, April 16, 2009

Getting intense

When I was still basking myself in the yesterday's fortune that the mistake made public actually had nothing to do with me, another email directly sent to me caught me by surprise. The moment the email arrived, I was working on another project and thus, was not the least ready for it. Opening the email, it bowled me over to see I was actually one of the people the email was for. In fact, it was no good news to receive an email captioned Mistake. Followed would be marked by strenuous effort to find out the person who dropped the ball, petrifying everyone. Mistake-phobic Ivy, having already committed more mistakes than she was expected to as a freshman, was sitting on her chair,Designer clothing her heart beating fast, feeling as if dooms day were coming.It was no exaggeration, because it just was getting so intense. This time, it was not a tiny mistake. Though later on result came out that the ball didn't fall on my court, the fear was still there to stay. But this alone couldn't justify they went public with every mistake always as far as I am concerned. They were just too harsh on us, putting too much strain on our work. For me, the mistakes I made and the fear of their action detracted away my confidence, the same way other colleagues felt. I've no idea if there was - like I said- the office politics thing in here? Anybody out there they are interested Designer replica handbagsin taking down? Have I read too many negative reports on office competition that actually my vision was blurred, and my opinion biased? Not a clue!The fear of mistakes drove everyone to be twice careful. But it was sort of frustrating at the lack of confidence that there might be mistakes though we counter checked our tasks again and again. Were we actually having too little faith in ourselves or what? I cannot figure out what it was for my colleagues. But for myself, I seriously knew I became a slave in this issue. The fear of mistakes occurrence distracted attention, detracted performance and resulted in both necessary and unnecessary mistakes. Wholesale jewelry Through this miserable process, we did learn to be careful and detail-oriented. Was this the price to pay to grow more professional?It was good to be pushed to attach more attention to work and to be detail-oriented. Eventually, this should be what we will be in the work place. And years later, I will be thankful to my first year experience in my work career. Paying more attention to details and making sure the work is correct in every detail was the thing to do before ultimately seeing the big picture. But apparently, I haven’t learned to appreciate the intense work atmosphere that generated too much fear in me and diminished my confidence.I would love to be tutored step by step rather than being pushed harshly.I would enjoy a less-stressed environment where I could fully unleash my talents and work with willingness and happiness. But I know, now, that this is what it should be at working. This is the pressure I would bear when I chose to work in a big city, where there were very strict standards and appraisal system for everyone. I grow a lot. And the only thing to expect now is I will be more professional as I can be in this first year of my career, paving way for a brilliant career prospect.

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